Feeling so stressed up..

It's now 5am Sunday morning... Here i am blogging.. Couldnt sleep at all... I think is due to me thinking too much.. But no choice.. I really cant get to sleep.. All i can think of is my debts... How am i going to clear my debts which are mounting like mad?

I am like self destructing.. knOwing that the debts are mounting higher and higher, spirally out of control.. Yet I just keep on spending, lending people money.. What the hell am i dOing with my life...

Am feeling sick of myself.. Many interviews arranged yet i never go.. Not studying hard enough for my exams and not going for enough classes.. Sigh.. The only positive thing rite now is HIM.. Thanks to him for cheering me up everyday...

What has happened in these (almost) 3 months that I didnt even have time to blog? Lots... My birthday has come and go.. Officially 27 already.. The year i was supposed to get married, according to the fortune teller i went to when i was 14.. hahaha.. Suddenly feel very tired of life.. Haiz..

*Work wise*
Since I left tat shithole, tried working for 2 other companies but it did not last long.. The 1st one was @ HSA, as a temp HR.. Lasted all of 2 weeks.. The environment there CMI.. Treated like 2nd class citizen.. Hourly-rated somemore..

2nd place was @ Standard Chartered Bank.. The post was a one year contract.. The pay was good.. But I cannot adapt to the environment and job scope.. Left after almost a month there.. Since then, been gOing for a few interview..

Was shortlisted for a few but did not follow up.. Dunno what is wrong with me oso.. Anyway.. got 3 more interviews scheduled for next week.. I must buck up & make sure i go for the interview.. If not i think i can really file for bankrupcy liao..And my "beibei" promised to get me a present if i can secure a job within next week ^_^

*School-wise*

Gotten the results for the previous semester finally.. Gotten mainly B+.. So far so good.. But think tis term result sure die... Damn hectic schedule this term.. Luckily it has ended.. After i take 2 more exams next week... Sigh.. Supposed to take the exam this week but was on MC for 2 days of the exam so need to retake... Hopefully can pass ba...

*Love life*

Broken up wif BF of 2 years last month, after much struggle.. Hate to be the one to initiate a break up.. Is it me? Why cant i stay with a guy for more than 3 years?? He was good but not for me....

Gotten together wif my beibei recently.. Really glad to have found him.. More about our story in some other posts...

Feeling rather tired.. Will update soon..