On my way to work..

Am now in train on my way to work.. So tired.. Yesterday reached home at 1130pm.. By de time i settled down oredi 12 le.. Replied n clear my emails, surf my facebook, got my usual dose of blog reading, oredi 130am.. Intended to sleep early but Received a call from ryan.. Chatted till 215am den sleep.. Confided in him aBt my bf prob.. Didn't get much solution but at least feel better after letting it out.. Woke up at 730am but dilly dally till 805 den come out.. Anyway i'll be at genting from tmr 9 jan till sun 11 jan.. I reali hope he dun spring any suprise on me (ie propose).. If it was any earlier, i might feel more excited n anticipating but now if u ask me, i onli feel dread n doom.. How weird one's feeling is.. Anyway last nite is my first day of class n oredi, we're informed to form group of 4 for our group assignments.. My time is so packed now, hopefully i can cope.. N for today's interview, i'm excited yet dreading it at de same time.. Excited
cos of de shuai ge (haha) n de new possibilities n challenges, dread it cos i've grown attached to some of my staff in my current co n accustomed to my environment.. I'm scared of changes, tat i'll upset the equilibrium n order in my life, scared of making decisions.. Cos every decision u make, there's bound to be opportunity costs.. N i'll be left thinking of all the "what if"s n "if onli"s.. Sigh.. Ya.. I'm one confused girl, a big big girl in tis big big world, dunno wat i wan in life.. Or am i now experiencing de well known n documented : MID LIFE CRISIS?? :'(